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Sometimes I Try Too Hard

Sometimes I try too hard. Actually, make that most of the time. If I really took the time to sit and think at the end of every single day what I had done, ya know, reflect then I would always end up asking myself why I bothered.

Why did I really go to that event?

Why did I really park where I did for the school run?

Why did I really blog?

Why did I really cook that dinner?

Why did I really go to that class?

Why do I take my kids to those activities?

Why did I really text that person?

I try too hard.

If I stopped trying and I just got on with my own business. My own life. The easy route then would all those things be missed? Would I feel any different? Would I worry so much? Would I care so much?

Have you ever got to that point where you think, hey! Let’s not bother. Let’s see what happens if I don’t try. If I take the simple life. So many people in my life that aren’t actually bothered about me. It’s just being polite. 

Earn only the amount I need to get by and not try and take on the world. Just cook one simple dinner that I know the family will eat. Park closer at the school where Matilda isnt going to have a melt down that it’s so far and she is freezing cold. Don’t text those that actually aren’t bothered about hearing from you. Just walk away from blogging as it’s just another thing that nobody cares about. Just keep myself to myself. Just don’t try. I wonder what would happen?

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I have no idea how people do the 500 calorie diet

The Diet…

The calorie counting has had its plus and minuses if i’m honest. When I do it, it’s a real eye opener and I have no idea how people do this 500 calorie diet. I can’t seem to go under 1200 calories! On those days I don’t add data to the calorie counting app I feel like I’m free and I don’t eat as much. How does that work?! Anyway i’m 4lbs lighter than last year which is better than 4lbs on I guess.

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Since the new year, I have run a lot. I’m talking 11 miles every weekend and dancing and gym and school runs (seriously I’m counting everything).

I just need to find someone to serve me my healthy snacks and meals – simple!

The House Move …

So, we sold at the end of November and we also bought at the end of November. We are currently so close to exchanging that I’m constantly checking my emails for the solicitor to announce the much-needed news. Argh it’s driving me insane. As both my husband and I work all week we have been doing clear outs, tip runs and packing on weekends around birthday parties and family outings. There is no method to the madness at all. Just tip everything we don’t want and box everything we are keeping. We still have lots to do but we are in limbo. How much do you pack up before you have exchanged? My existing house, of 10 years feels cold and empty now. We are ready to move on. In our minds this move is a fresh start and we want that fresh start to happen now. It’s almost like waiting for a much awaited holiday to come around.  I can imagine myself and my family in our new home – which is incredible when I have only been inside it once and day dream from the images on the leaflet. I also have worries. What if this house is nothing like I remember. The big move and all that excitement for nothing.

We still have lots to do but we are in limbo. How much do you pack up before you have exchanged? My existing house, of 10 years feels cold and empty now. We are ready to move on. In our minds this move is a fresh start and we want that fresh start to happen now. It’s almost like waiting for a much needed holiday to come around.  I can imagine myself and my family in our new home – which is incredible when I have only been inside it once and day dream from the images on the leaflet. I also have worries. What if this house is nothing like I remember. The big move and all that excitement for nothing. The grass isn’t always greener and all that.

Luckily there’s no work to do to the house – from what i remember. I want a wall taken down and the garage to be transformed and new furniture. I want all my girls to have pretty single beds rather than their high sleepers, I want a new bed, something vintage and pretty. A new dining table, A new sofa. I also want new curtains and new bedding, a new desk and a new dresser. I just want to start all over again and buy the things that I have dreamt about for years. I want it all light and white and calm and relaxing.


We spent the last ten years growing up in our house. Wasting money and saving money. Having three children and going from the early days in our careers to wherewe are now in our thirties. Our existing house had been the house that we have been growing up in. We have learnt a lot and created new dreams. Our new house is where we will be grown ups. Our decisions will be better. Our income and understanding of money is better.

The people my husband and I and our children want to be and want to become will happen in this house.

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talkRADIO is launching a brand new radio show, Badass Women’s Hour

I have just read this press release that was emailed over to me and I have to share – sounds exciting!

12 January 2017, London: talkRADIO is launching a brand new radio show, Badass Women’s Hour, which will be broadcast every Saturday night at 8pm starting this Saturday [14 January].

Presented by journalist Harriet Minter and co-hosted by entrepreneurs Natalie Campbell and Emma Sexton, Badass Women’s Hour will feature bold and inspiring women from fashion, music, design & business, reacting to the biggest talking points in a funny and entertaining way.

Harriet Minter is a journalist and broadcaster specialising in women and work. She founded and edited the Guardian’s Women in Leadership section and is now a columnist for the newspaper on women in technology. Natalie Campbell is the co-founder of A Very Good Company (AVGC), a global social innovation agency and Emma Sexton is the founder and creative director of design business Make Your Words Work and also the co-founder of Flock Global, a collaborative network for entrepreneurs.

Minter, Campbell and Sexton said: “We’re all firm friends, and feel it’s important to bring those real conversations that women have over dinner, drinks and in private out into the open in a more honest and badass way. The show will be funny, frank and fearless – just like we are, and we can’t wait to get started.”

Dennie Morris, Managing Editor for talkRADIO, said: “This show is a really exciting development for us and we’re really pleased to have Harriet, Natalie and Emma on board to bring their ideas and contacts to the station. In true talkRADIO style, the show will cover the topics that everyone’s talking about and will be a fantastic listen.”

 

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Week 1 Calorie Counting Diary – Test Week

Day 1 of the diet DONE so today we are onto day 2. I felt so proud of myself yesterday turning down wine and chocolate and cheese 😬 For January I’m aiming to shift half a stone which means I need to have willpower. Something I don’t have much of these days! For me, it’s important I lose the weight that I don’t want to carry because it plays on my mind and makes my mood very low. Today I plan on being active and going on a good long walk with my kids, hubby and pup. Packing fruit as snacks.

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Day two of my New Year diet and I’m enjoying calorie counting. I don’t feel like I’m depriving myself and I was still allowed to have a small glass of red wine whilst cooking dinner. We walked for 2.5hrs in the forest today and it was brilliant. I LOVE stomps in nature. Free, educational and so refreshing. 💕 My first run of the new year is happening tomorrow which I’m excited about. It will be an early one but it sets you up for the day.

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Day three and I have felt sick on and off today. I ran at 6am and picked on food a lot today but still within my calorie allowance and all healthy. My heart has been racing lots – like mini panic attacks. I think it’s because I haven’t been able to work for three weeks and I’m eager to get on with it. Kids are gradually going back to school this week so next week will be a normal week. I feel overwhelmed and I want to eat crap to help my anxiety and I can’t. I want wine. I can’t. No idea how to help the anxiety without chocolate and wine. That’s all I know. I’m trying to breathe and write a list but that’s not helping either.

Day 4 and today was a work day, mummy day, take the dog to the vet day, treat Matilda to a swim day and school run day! Woah. I used my calories on Warburtons thins and spinach/rocket. oh! And skinny popcorn! It was hard not snacking on chocolate and biscuits because that’s all I wanted as I’m super tired with kids not sleeping and felt a little anxious with juggling everything today. I did it though because that crap isn’t in the house anymore. I also met a client deadline today. My treat will be a glass of red wine whilst I carry on working tonight. I also consumed heaps of lemon water today and all I have done is visit the toilet every half an hour!

Day 5 and I’m 3lbs lighter. Yay!!! My mind is clearer and I’m feeling happier. I’m focused😎 and UNDER my calorie allowance today. Always good

Day 6 and I’m tired. Stupidly tired. Lost 3.5lbs in 6 days so I’m pleased but I’m craving crap so bad!! My kids haven’t been eating badly either this week so I gave them these sweet pots as a Friday treat. Their behavior has been so much better this week. I just want to drink a bottle of wine now in my pj’s … but I won’t! I’m heading out to see friends and I’m not drinking anything but sparkling water.

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Day 7 and I decided to have a fringe cut and buy new makeup in order to feel better about myself. I had chocolate today 🙈but doing a 10-mile run tomorrow so i forgive myself. That bottle of prosecco has really blown it for me this week.

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Day 8 and a 10 mile run, 1.5ltr of water and a Sunday roast for me! 💕 However I had a bottle of prosecco last night – awful I know! I think I will lower my calorie intake this week by a 50 and also up my 5k runs to three times this week as I didn’t run much last week. Aim for week two is to up my fruit intake.

Running mileage week 1 = 24k

Total Calories Consumed = 11,728 (allowance was 10,400)

Total Calories Burned = 2,007

So I’m trying to see week 1 as a test run – stupid prosecco! Stupid breakdown yesterday! So for the week ahead I’m allowing myself a total of (Monday to Sunday) 8,400 calories for the 7 days. In this time I’m hoping to burn 2000 calories from running.

Food this week should include;

Turkey breasts, chicken breasts, pasta, gammon, 5% mince, homemade bolognese and lots of fruit and veg.