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My Very First Podcast

I have decided to test the water with my very first podcast. It’s basic. It’s just me chatting with no agenda, but I hope that this really takes off with all aspects of my life. From running my own business, to my personal life. I think it all matters. I think it’s good to share.

A huge thank you to Fearne Cotton for inspiring me.

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My Top 10 Ways To Relax

I have things I do and places I go that make me feel calm, happy and inspired. I wanted to share them with you…

  1. The gym.  Most of the time it’s hard work getting my bum there because I love getting settled on the sofa under a blanket but I love the feeling once i’m there.  I love running on the treadmill for 3 miles whilst listening to music, like Coldplay Fix You and catching up on vlogs. It’s MY TIME and I feel great after a workout.
  2. My lounge when there’s nobody home, I sit in the same seat on the sofa, with the light beaming though our big window looking out on the neighbourhood. It’s the lightest room in the house and it’s a ‘feel good’ room with my cozy blankets.
  3. My bed in the early evening with my laptop, or a book or the TV on. It reminds me of my teenage years at my parents. I loved hanging out in my bedroom and having my own space.
  4. The beach for me, in the autumn or winter months is amazing and THE time to own a beach hut i think (I don’t but i would love to!) It’s also our dogs favourite place too. Wrapping up and walking and chatting and feeling windswept and tired after, going home to a glass of red and getting into pj’s. The beach will also inspire me to think clearly and feel lucky to live on the South Coast. 
  5. A glass or two of red wine on a weekend afternoon. It’s the best way to relax when there are no plans and let’s face it, with three kids there’s always something going on at the weekend. A day off feels like doing something different and I say, get the radio on and enjoy a couple of glasses of wine relaxing at home.
  6. A small coffee shop, and even better somewhere tucked away in a nice little village with wifi and you know you have at least two hours to enjoy some Dorset cake and a nice, frothy coffee.
  7. Reading a book will always be on my list of faves! I get so excited at the thought of reading a book but picking between a good fiction book and a book that will help me to think, learn and grow isn’t easy. However, no matter what I chose, there’s nothing better than reading a book whilst in a hot bath filled with bubbles.
  8. Reading a magazine is not something I do very often, well apart from my Slimming World magazine that I get every month but I now read magazines on my Readly app – usually a running magazine or OK. It’s the only way I know what is going on in the world. Have you seen this app?
  9. Reading blogs is something i have always loved doing since I started blogging myself in 2005. I love finding out about people and I learn so much! Sometimes it’s nice knowing that there’s other ‘real’ people out there.
  10. Finally, I love making coffee in my kitchen because I have the perfect spot and view whilst the kettle boils. I love looking out of the kitchen window at the squirrels running up and down the trees – see, nature again! It really helps my mind drift.
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Now what I would love to add to my list is a lovely area that I can sit and write at – I have found such a beautiful desk in John Lewis and it would look lovely in front of a window or in my favourite room – the living room! I would also love a single armchair with a book shelf and coffee table – my own little reading corner.

I would love to know how you relax! Make sure you leave me a link to any blog posts you have written about relaxing.

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Day 1 Of My 2018 365 day Journey

As I sit and type this post today, I am gazing out of my dining room window and looking out onto my back garden. It’s still. It’s covered in leaves but I was inspired to write a post because as I sit looking at all the brown and dark greens of the garden I can’t help but feel a little excited at the thought of all the beautiful colours that will start coming through my garden again. With the sound of rustling trees, squeaking guinea pigs (that I must clean out today!)  and a fresh breeze coming through the open window, I’m feeling content knowing that we are going to embark on a new journey, in a new year too. A new year, for me, always comes with a wishlist. I love stepping into a new year and thinking about what could happen over the next 12 months. I’m excited at the thought of growing again this year. I love to learn and I know that a new year will always see me grow that little bit more. A chance to develop in both confidence and knowledge.

My husband agreed to help me get better this year. I’m not visibly sick. This depression and anxiety keeps taking over and I have allowed it to. It makes me a nightmare to live with but luckily I have a very understanding husband and my children don’t know any different. Keeping calm, focused and in control is the best way for me to manage it. My life gets over complicated and busy but that’s because I allow it too. My new word for 2018 is going to be NO (well in most situations). I promised myself that I would take a day off a week, so I can have a date with myself. It’s something I really need. I haven’t done this yet though. This is making me more poorly. I’m just one of those people that can’t cope with the stress of a busy week and I love having my own company to read a book, to write, to run, to walk, to shop, to clean. It’s so good for the soul.

I spent a year chasing after everything I didn’t need to, thinking it would make me better. I neglected something that I have done since 2005; blogging. I have blogged since 2005 and in 2017 I made myself too busy. This just made me worse. I missed blogging. I missed writing. I missed my little space on the internet and the blogging community.

I guess with being a business owner, I need to be more professional and not open up, but that’s just not me. I’m human. I’m honest and loyal and I wear my heart on my sleeve. That’s just me. There’s no point in pretending i’m someone i’m not. I’m ME. I’m passionate about what I do for a living and I’m passionate about having my own company. It has been a dream for so long now, Just like my business, I couldn’t walk away from blogging.

I have set the same promise to myself that I always do, and usually every year it happens. Yep! Weightloss. Every year I do this and feel better and then i’m always ready to add on the pounds over December. It just didn’t happen in 2017. The anxiety took over and I turned to food and wine for comfort. This has always been a ‘thing’ but never as bad as it got in 2017. I’m not an alcoholic by the way but I did end up drinking most evenings and quickly too so I would feel that rush of being care free and the happy Emma. I would justify the calories by running. It doesn’t work like that and do you know what? It added to the anxiety and made me even more miserable!

I was also thinking about how much I love being in my garden and how very little I actually go out there and potter or sit. It’s one of those things that I just don’t have time for but when I do, I feel happy and calm. I’m a sucker for nature I guess. It makes me feel amazing. If you look my business name – Blossom Lane Marketing, you can see what inspired the name!

So there we go, day 1 of 365 days in 2018. It’s time to make me better.

Emma x




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The Kids Are At School. Who Am I?

The kids are back at school! I no longer have children at home. Whilst this makes me feel sad, I’m also feeling free and less stressed.

Being able to work 5 days of the week has made me feel more human. I haven’t had my hair cut since last November so I’m taking the opportunity to do it guilt free whilst the girls are at school and on a day that I don’t need to be working on the admin, sometimes those things can wait.

All three girls are exhausted come Fridays though so planning one activity a weekend is our limit at the moment. Whilst they love relaxing in their pj’s on a Saturday morning, they love being on an adventure too. It’s nice because having more time to work in the week also means that I’m not thinking about work at the weekends and getting stressed with the kids if I need to check emails. Believe me when I say that this is refreshing!

We usually do bike rides, dog walks (we need to start making the most of the beach and national trust again at this time of the year) and very recently I had the opportunity to take them back to Weymouth Sealife Centre for their CBBC’s The Deep themed event. This was a lot of fun because the kids had to go around and solve the deep sea mysteries. It kept them entertained on the way around and there were a lot of cheers. I realise now that The Sealife Centre actually do different themes so there’s different things to do on each visit. A reason to visit more often. I still didn’t manage to get to the beach after but it was raining at the end of the day and we were exhausted again. The kids did enjoy buying keyrings in the gift shop instead though and collecting more badges. Oh there’s a pop badge swap going on this coming weekend! There’s info over on the Sealife website.

We need to find new bike ride adventures to go on. There must be a local bike group I could join? Riding for hours through the mud and Autumn leaves. THE BEST!

We also love swimming at our local BHLive Active gym with a treat of soft play and drinks after.

With all three at school, Matilda seems to have grown up that little bit more. She is still very much a mummy’s girl but I find it odd that I’m getting me back. Not that I know who ME is these days. I think most parents find that they are on a journey of self-discovery at this point in their life. I have had almost 9 years of juggling children and work so i have no idea how i feel at the moment.

It does feel overwhelming, there’s so much I want to do. I keep promising that I will start my vlog series, especially when i can spend a bit of time making my face and hair look pretty. hehe.

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Weymouth Sealife Centre – A Great Day Out!

Over the summer break, we tried to do as much as we could in between both Dave and I working. We were keen to do things that were different and memorable. Camping at different places and a couple of trips to see family in Guernsey have been really wonderful but we were thrilled to also cram in a day trip to one of our favourite places; Weymouth. We haven’t been to Weymouth Sealife Centre in years and I had heard from friends that it had changed so when Liz Lean PR invited me and my family to visit and meet the Octonauts and meet Kwaazi we jumped at the chance. Matilda is a huge fan! I noticed that this was only on until the end of August but now they have CBBC’s most daring family of the deep sea. LOOK HERE

A 40 minutes drive for me and the kids as Dave was working, and although I was really anxious about doing this alone, i knew some friends would be there to say Hi too and we had the satnav!

We were blessed with beautiful weather and a really lovely drive.

As soon as we arrived, we were given some explorers books to check off as we went around. After each section, the kids stamped their books to say that they had been to that section.There are some odd looking fish! fascinated though, the kids got straight to it reading all the facts on the boards as we went around. The only thing we could have done with was a map!

If you go, you have to take some time out to let the kids run around and play at the Caribbean Cove whilst you sit on the grass and grab a costa. It totally restored my energy levels. The kids loved this new area!

This kind of day out is an all day out with a picnic. I loved that there were plenty of picnic areas dotted around. I wish we made the effort to head down to the beach at the end of day because it’s only across the road. A fish and chip supper would have been perfect! We were all so tired from such a fun day and I was worried how i would cope with the tired kids on my own – seriously I panic too much as it’s not like my kids are really bad!

When I asked my girls what they LOVED about the day they said the new Ideas Zone. I have to agree! Basically, the kids put on their lab coats and picked up a toy turtle and then put it under machines to X-ray. Here they got to name them and find out what was wrong with them. It was then their job to nurse them back to good health. The kids absolutely loved that part and we could have easily spent ages in here!

The kids also loved the Splash Zone. I am so glad I packed their swim wear and a towel.

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Family Camping. Why it’s great!

Since having children of our own, we have tried to have several staycations where the girls will make amazing memories and as we all have a love for nature and the great outdoors, we seem to have embarked on camping A LOT.

Camping has been THE holiday where we all seem to laugh out loud, have a break from technology and ‘rough it up’. We usually camp without electric and we usually pick those fields without any wifi or signal. Although this is horrible at first, we soon seem to slip into not knowing the time or what is going on in the world of social media. We even misplace our phones in our tent and not seem to care.

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Our camping trips have seen us go to Trewan Hall in Cornwall, Golden Cap, Nordern Farm, Rosewall, and  Lymington. Picking a good campsite isn’t easy but we have a criteria to follow now. Nice showers and toilets, on site shop, pub within walking distance, crabbing or rock pooling close-by, dog-friendly, firepits allowed. Having a nice shower and toilet unit is important because no matter how much you are ‘roughing it up’, the only piece of sanity you have is the decent shower that you will get first thing after a rubbish nights sleep.

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My girls adore camping so much and over the years we have added to our camping equipment. Our tent is a pretty good size but we got this tent at an amazingly reduced price so it was a BARGAIN. There’s plenty of places to hunt for a decent tent. We can fit 6 camp beds in a row in the bedroom with our luggage inside and under the beds too. The living room space always fits in all the adults that we usually camp with, which is about 8 of us and all their children. We usually have a games corner, colouring corner, a coat corner and we fit in all the adults chairs. Ours being wonderfully spacious means that we often play host to the group so we can all sit around dry and snug indoors and chat to each other. I now make sure that I take a dustpan and brush because after daily footfall on a large scale and food being consumed, when you shake out the carpet on packing up day we are usually greeted by a three-course dinner – well, usually crushed crisps and bread crumbs.

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I think investing in a good tent, that will stand the test of high winds and rain is important. British weather is a nightmare and when you plan a camping trip in the summer you can bet that it will rain and blow a gale!

We started our camping trip with blow up beds but we found these annoying and they would deflate quickly. We have since invested in camping beds but, although these are better, they are still not comfy. Me and the kids hate sleeping in sleeping bags so we take our duvets which feels much nicer, but our recent trip found me and the girls freezing! No onesies this time and I think they make a difference. I would suggest you add these to your list!

An essential that I would suggest to any first-time camper reading this is a wee bucket – yep! When your child needs a wee at 1am and it’s cold and dark outside and a trek to the toilet, it’s the last trip you want to be making so we take a bucket that we place in the side part of our tent – it’s actually the toilet room and my kids wee in a bucket. I’m guessing there’s something better out there for this but we use a bright orange bucket and we remain warm and dry. Although if they need a poo in the night then I will aslways send hubby.

We have a porch on our tent that we use for the cooking area. A double gas stove, a kettle and a big cool box is essential. Breakfasts are usually bacon, egg or sausage baps and lunch is usually pasta or pot noodles and dinner is bbq/pasta/mince dish. We usually do the cooking as a group because we find that we all eat the same things. This is so much easier. Although someone needs to forget bringing the crips! My waistline does not appreciate crisps and it’s my weakness especially after consuming the essential red wine.

Don’t forget to take a washing bowl so you can go and do all your washing up – i forgot this first time around and it was a pain!

We have a couple more camping trips planned this summer but as yet we are not sure where to go. It would be so nice to have more car space so we can take the bikes with us too.  I like staying active whilst camping and we do find ourselves on long walks which is lovely. I try and take my running stuff too but it’s not always easy getting up and out for a run when on a family camping trip. It does make you feel really good once you have done a run though, especially when living off naughty food.

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Our favourite sites have been Rosewall, Trewan Hall and Golden Cap so far. It’s an amazing way to bond as a family and appreciate home a little more!


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Could I Study Nutrition and Fitness?

A thought came to me today whilst I was working out in the gym (I soooo had to gloat because it’s Saturday!), and it may sound so crazy but I really would love to study nutrition and fitness and then use my knowledge to work with those who suffer depression. For me, the gym, family bike rides, eating well and running plays a huge part in my mental state. It really helps. I would love to know more. I would love to study it and read about it and write about it. I am a people person so I would love to do public speaking on the issue and help people.

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Could this actually happen?

Oh wow I feel emotional just thinking about this. I’m excited. I’m actually experiencing butterflies in my tummy!

I set up a running group on Facebook thinking only a few friends would join but i have over 2.5k members – there’s clearly a market for me.

I remember when i was so low that I didn’t want to exist and my health visitor asked if i wanted counselling – no way! She asked if I wanted gym membership – I don’t need to work out! She asked if I wanted pills – say whaaaat? However, if there were more people like me talking honestly about feeling so low that you think your kids would be happier without you around then I would say YES TO THE HELP. Gym for sure. C25K for sure. Build a community around you. Build each other up. High five. Fist pump. Try something new. Challenge yourself.

It can be the little things – and honest to god i know.

I’m actually excited about this idea. I would love to get out to schools and tell them how amazing it is to exercise – even if it means getting out with Pokemon Go. That fresh air, the smiles, the giggles, the bonding with those who go out with you. National Trust, the local heath, the local park. get a dog, get a bike, get outside!

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My Watch Reminds Me To Breathe

Okay, okay! I have been rubbish this year with writing. Life has got in the way. This is so annoying for me to admit because my one special word for 2017 was BREATHE and I don’t think I have had the time to do that. Even my apple watch reminds me to breathe. I’m not kidding.

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So my blog… I have lots to write about.

My new house

My kids being haemophilia carriers

My mental health

My life

My work

My weight

Well, there’s plenty. I need to write to literally brain dump my overthinking and craziness.

Let’s start with an update on my little family. Matilda has just turned 4. It’s so strange that she is 4 years old. I saw a reception teacher in Brantano after school today (kids moaning that they need new school shoes and as they are closing down and had 40% off I thought i would put an end to the morning moans) and this teacher and i chatted about when my eldest Nevie started school, Matilda was a 4 month old baby in the pram. I remember that feeling when i had to take all three kids to Nevies ‘meet the teacher’ afternoon’ because i had no childcare and i felt like the worn out, mad mum trying to kep my shit together.  One needing a feed, one wanting to play and the other wanting to be grown up, all whilst trying to take the information in from the new teacher who was about to start teaching my first born. Oh and she has just learned to ride her bike without stabilisers. As determined as her biggest sister was at that age.

Myla currently has an insanely wobbly tooth, so wobbly that she is too scared to eat or drink water which saw her throw herself on my kitchen floor this morning, taking off her clothes in a panic and screaming ‘mum i need ice NOW. I’m burning up. I’m sweating. I’m going to die of thirst mum’ whilst trying to stop the bleeding from her tooth as she had knocked it. She went white and told me she thought that she was going to pass out. This chick goes crazy on the first bit of blood and pain – honestly just like me.

Nevie is her usual unique self. A bull in a china shop. No emotions. No filter. To the point. In her own bubble. She came out of school today an emotional wreck. She is an ice maiden but today i witnessed my daughter cry proper tears after school begging me not to make her do after school netball as planned. I was glad. I have to hang around the school for an hour to wait for her as theres no point going home and i have my other kdis to look after so i can’t read a book, read a magazine, casually stroll around a few shops, go for a walk. Nope. An hour of moaning of hunger, tiredness (that’s not me by the way), so i gave her a hug, wiped her tears and skipped back to the car knowing that wine was closer than i thought.


Me?  Well i’m glad you asked gorgeous readers. I have spent hours thinking that the freelance life isn’t for me. Nobody takes me seriously. No childcare, no office, no working printer (i am aware that i can go and buy another which i will be doing tomorrow), nobody to talk to, nobody to creative think with has all left me re-thinking my path. I have reflected and I have started leaving some clients. There’s a couple that i really don’t want to walk away from so I’m keeping them and working for them with my friend Jill, who gave me my first break into Marketing back in 2004. We have a great working relationship and so we decided to team up, offer a much better service using both our skills and we are amazing! Well soeone needs to say it!

I went cold turkey on my anti-depressants 9 weeks ago. I was warned not to do this, so naturally I did. I have been a little crazy through doing too much, not having any time out, running on nothing, worrying about everything and everyone, doubting myself, anxiety eating, anxiety drinking … BUT it’s not as bad as i imagined. There are days that i want to start taking the tablets again, where i want to walk and keep walking and there is no shame in wanting to do that but when i look at my friends they all seem to cope, they appear happy and content. They have the time to breathe. I’m not sure why I don’t but life seems good for them and they are not on tablets so i believe i need to re-train myself to SLOW DOWN and take a leaf from their book. I actually don’t know how to relax.


Okay more next time folks… I have lunch boxes to make, washing to fold and work to do.


Emma x

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Channel Mum Inspired. Time To Vlog

I posted earlier on my YouTube channel about how I didn’t make it as a Channel Mum this time around. I felt a little gutted because I love Channel Mum vloggers and really wanted to be recognised by them and have the support to grow. I think all the vloggers are ACE. I don’t think I have ever felt like the cool kid in the blogging community, and just wanted to be a part of it.


I know you have to blog several times a week and comment and network but I don’t get much of a chance. I think it’s all so fast paced for me and I can’t keep up. I do try. I’m forever in survival mode with the kids and house and running and having my own business so I’m trying to be part of the cool community but it’s such hard work. How does everyone do it? I adore the blogging and vlogging community. I work with so many influencers as part of my job and i admire everyone. I’m only gutted i didn’t make it as a Channel Mum but don’t feel negative towards the decision or towards those that did make it. It’s actually a wake up call of how much i wanted to be accepted and how much i wanted the support to grow but i will simply do it from the ‘outside’ and see what happens.

I know too well not to accept defeat – always another chance and always worth trying again because you actually go on a journey and learn along the way.

Have you seen who has been accepted? I have actually discovered some new bloggers which is exciting.


My kids are keen for me to vlog so let’s do this … and for goodness sake can someone please tell me how to hold my phone to film?!

Well done to those that made it – I’m looking forward to watching you grow 🙂 and to those that didn’t? It’s not the end of the world – just vlog your heart out and see what happens.

Emma x

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Trees … The Perfect Escapism

I’m telling myself off right now for not blogging enough. What the heck is wrong with me. I love blogging, i love reading blogs, i love working with bloggers… and yet there’s a matter where I work in PR and i never work at PR’ing myself, market myself or blog. I’m always feeling so content to be looking after everyone else and thinking that I’m not good enough to market myself. WHO AM I? Why do we do this?



Oh my days I am so content these days. Three weeks off the Prozac people… i know i could crash any day now and i have had a couple of moments of tears and rocking with a large glass of wine but my husband is always there to help me and after a good nights sleep  i’m okay again. It’s okay right?  It’s probably very normal and nobody likes to admit. I’m too honest for my own good!

So this month so far my beautiful family have moved house, i have a new business partner (more will be revealed next month), i have applied to be a channel mum but although i’m crossing everything i’m pretty sure there is no way i will be picked but as i have learnt in my last year of freelancing – you never know unless you ask!

Oh my days my house, my new area… It’s not a palace by the way, but it’s the fact that the house is finished and there are no unfinished jobs to be done… honest it’s  the best! After being in a house with unfinished DIY, this is utter bliss. There’s carpet. We spent a year with laminate due to getting a puppy! It was cold and a nightmare to wake up to every morning, especially when the sun was shining. You could see everything!  Every time you came home you were greeted with what felt like a dirty house and it drove me bonkers. There’s a really good sized utility room in this house that i would like turned into my office so this will require plaster board, new lights and painting but I’m saving for the man who can!


I’m really enjoying work these days. Why didn’t i go freelance sooner? The flexible working is great when you have three girls who need you to run them around to all their school clubs, to talk to, to hang out with. I dedicate three days a week to working, and most evenings with the odd weekend mixed in and although i may grumble at times, it’s bloody amazing! I work with parenting brands because i have discovered that that is where my passion belongs. I really enjoy working in the parenting market, and especially working FOR  parents who run their own business. Seriously inspiring and such a rewarding job.

Close to our house we have the heath, a beautiful super huge heath with amazing views. It’s just truly beautiful. Nature really clears my mind. It’s so handy having a dog. It’s less than a 5-minute walk from my house. The sound of the tree’s bustling and the birds tweeting. A good fast paced stomp, a slow walk or a run … it’s all just perfect for clearing the mind, having a good cry and feeling refreshed.


Since moving house, I made a promise that my well-being would come first. I have taken on a couple of freelancers myself and a business partner and I make sure i make time at least once a week to pop to the garden centre and then spend time in my greenhouse. My Fridays are my CHILL THE HECK OUT DAYS and my Mondays are my food shopping days as i spent the weekend fretting about everything i had to do.

It’s funny because i actually said to Dave that if the sun is shining Sunday for Mother’s Day I would love for him to take the kids out to play and I can pop music on, open all my windows without worrying a kid will fall out and clean and potter. It would be a real treat. Jeez … as i wrote that i realised just how sad i am now, or is it that i’m so content and it’s the little treats in life?